past,present,future

i am really looking forward to meet you
hmm..
what will it feels and what will the atmosphere feels like?
awkward? the same us? or it's just won't be the same anymore
i really curious what will happen in future
i never expect anything but i really hope everything will just be fine

to forget the past, i decided to commit in a commitment
i want to live something different with someone else
maybe things will get better

i've been crying behind the laughter every single days
i am really tired of these fucking past
it's still linger in my head after so long

i've been dump by the same person over and over and over again
i feel so stupid

argument is simply common in an relationship
as long as we patience and really committed to each other, those arguments mean nothing but soemthing that we communicate each other.
i've learn so many things

i learn to forgive, i've learn to let go
i've learn to give up on something that really matters to me
i've learn crying is not an option but moving forward and sees the one who really there for you, care about you.
there are simple amazing people out there waiting for us.

i am really tired
i duno what happen till we got here
but this is really huge for me to accept.
it's been really really long
yes, truly long enough

thinking i should done better its not exactly what it must
but
thinking i had make a choices which lead my life experience something fluctuated
wow
i really am proud of myself that i manage to adjust that stress

suicide? nope.. killing myself won't change anything better but making my love one regrets for not protecting me from the worse

whenever im thinking of giving up, i think of my family
thanks daddy and mummy
even though you both have no idea what i'm experience but your existence make me believe there's warmth

that black spot will always there deep in my heart..
yes it won't heal ..the scar will always stay there..your words and actions had nail beyond my heart
but it will replace by wonderful, colourful, warmth by people that cares for me.

three guys had walk in my life
and all of them dump me and lelf me
i should started thinking what's going on
it's my problem
yes indeed
people tend to leave me
without any words
it's the most painful things that occur to me

well,
i' ve learn in this harsh experience
i won't try to love or being love..being hurt it's the possible things that happen

i have no idea how can you deal and overcome this trauma but i can see it goes so well on you.

i've been worrying so much and now there's nothing to worry because it had happened.

now, im enjoying my life , i am really glad you walk away
now i can see the facts and reality
yes!
i am really happy!!! wohoo!!
cant wait for june!! really cant wait!!

muackssss! miss you!!

and i will walk alone till someone special that been waiting for me for so long 

ehmm...see what will happen next

let it flow by itself

time will decide it for us.