disappointed like always

I regret put you my everything

you put me as what?

option??

excuse me..what I did for you not god enough?

call you movie with me but u say want sleep cz tired..but you went out with your friends??

you break my heart so deep !

fucked up!

you shouldnt get my loyalty honesty love all i gave it to you.

you don't deserve.

I treated you my everything my priority 

but..

you just...

I very disappointed.

Today I finally know how important I am to you.

I'm just a gal whenever you need huh..

My life is so complicated with you.

Because of you yesterday I never read any books just because you want I accompany you.
What I get ??
BULLSHIT!
Rather I eat nothing or can food??
What a nice bf..very good.
*thumbs up!

however ,

I went movie with Annie

watch ELLA movie which I wanted to watch .

Forget it. I still have my friends.

You treat me like this

You'll get treated as this too.

After movie walk walk yi xia at dp..

Bought a wallet and a shirt.

Thought my plan gonna hang out wit YOU but u just let me disappointed.

Nvm..friends are the best companion after all thx frenz ;)

I LOVE YOU GIRLS SO MUCHIE!! ;)

AND

i very very very regret and disappointed in you!

rmb how you treat me today.

you dunno how hurt it is coz you never felt this way bcz i nvr treat you like this.

someday you just noe ba.

Love Myself Ivy...

7.45 reach home ..early sial..imma a cam-whore xP

HIGHLIGHT: ICE-CREAM!!! ;)

WOHOO!!

finally most heavy subject sejarah finish!

hell yea~

less stress d..not so pressure.

Now left a few paper..must jia you.

anyway i wanna upload picture.. last saturday went to wings cafe wit my babes..meanwhile YOU went to MIXX ..very good.

however i enjoy my time with them..laugh here there..

feel so ease with them. :)

anyhow..10 pm like tat fetch kelly then li xia hohoho..

when reached ther i get a call from lixia..and i have to gwent bek kampung lapan fetch her..

its ok..i wanna see her.. ^^

after reached melaka raya..guess what??

I cant find wings cafe!!??

wah piang i turn and turn..ceh..wings under renovation so no light ther...

an we seated outside. so romantic with the lights ther..

finally I get to eat ice cream!! arghh I wanna eat so long dy..

my favourite flavoured mint and chocolate ;) yummy!!

the spoon damn long @@ 

haha but too sweet LOL the chocolate dunno why so sweet.

i enjoyed my day :)

bullshit

DISAPPOINTED again and again..

Why would I expect he will do anything for me?? I think too much and I get frustrated with everything now!

I cant study..really cant .. I feel so useless cant read all the notes given. Keep tears down.. I expect too much from you . What i get is all bullshit. BULLSHIT!

Maybe your mom are right bout everything . if we cant go well cant communicate we should separate. ya. no use. even there's a love in it,if it didnt work its meaningless. This relation hang so long with problems. Someday somehow we will figured out what best for us.

Love is too much for me. I cant take it. You just another guy out there same with them..you just being too selfish.. 

Remember what you had scolded me today and said to me! I WILL NEVER FORGET HOW YOU TREATED ME! 

arhggg!!!
after exam
i gonna shake gao gao!!!
go shake go chiong k!!!
beh tahan liao
=3=
i want have fun
go kl go genting go die oso can!
go bang car die
hohohohoho

OVER!

finally over is over.
i wont give a damn about being back together with you anymore.
is you block me and chat with those bitches.
u break promise. k..we r definitely done!
can throw away those pictures i make for anniversary . i will live happily without you! play boy!
FUCK YOU!

=___=

First paper..cialat..hang in blank answer sheet..
im sry mom..i can't do well .. I'm stupid I know. I'll try my best in other paper! From now I will focus in my studies. I regret I neglect you my books~ I've bought you purchased you in book store but I never touch you..go read thru you..well BOOKS I will use you wisely :)

LIFE

Day by day keep growing old..well I'm 19 now 

next year gonna be a big girl 20* ^.^ erm..do i look like 20 grown up women?

haha...anyway.. exam on Tuesday and guess what? I haven prepare..used to it~ last minute everything haha..Im getting lazier..My result not so good like before. I think Im having fun, enjoy wit outdoor activities not with books ? hmm... ya I've change. Change to not a better person but a lazy Ivy :(  

Well I'm having fun with my life... I'm 19 this year .everything gonna be a rough life for me after 19.

responsibility on my life...my future life.. I'm wasting my time. 

I forgot how important this year to me but I keep having fun not studying??

ARGHH! I can't waste anymore but I keep tempted by outside life! @@

someone ...please push me..push me to study!! PLEASE! 

A year that very important to me ! to have a better life! better future! I'm gonna do it!

you my little cute chubby hubby..Your are my only groom that will stand upon beside me on registration of husband and wife :) ILY so much .. lots of love yah dii.

 

e.n.d

yeah..i was count downing our 1 year anniversary 

but...

you just crush my heart...

you make me so heart broken..

sad like fuck..

cry and cry driving like idiot.

Don't you worry..

I will try my best to live without you.

I will be stronger and tougher.

I will change my personalities.

I won't be the Ivy Koh I used to be.

I'm tired with myself.

Sacrifice nothing just for you and what I get is ignorance.

yea...You asked for it.

I nothing to say d..

Just blame everything on me.

Tell ppl that IM a lousy gf ever. 

I dun mind.

I know what I did can d.

And you.

lastly..

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY :')

ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU. 

Waste..

I wasted too much things for you..
too much..
you don't appreciate what I done so is wasted.
I will be no longer act like this coz you totally crush me. When time comes don't blame me.
You the reason it happen this way.
 I hate this relation .. you make me hate this relation. you always neglect me ignore me... friends are your life not me...so let me go when things up side down.
sorry if you read this but this is fact. dun avoid d . you know i know

Circle of life

Break?

I like?

What a wonderful thing to said to me.

Well, nvm I get used to d..

You want me to do things u dun like, then please..you too.

Dun expect me to do things you dun like meanwhile u did it to.

You can jump out from my car whenever you like huh

Who do you think I'm to you? a driver? 

You want yam cha, k..go find you. I dy feel not well but hoping to see you I neglect all the pain.

hohoho 

why? why every time I wanna have a happy fun time with you things will just get worse and worst?

You said I went tea meanwhile your nothing just lying on bed?

you now know the feeling?

I wonder what you will feel like ..

wow, just now you just felt it.

Kinda hurts huh?

You now know how my feeling when u neglect me for hours and hours never even reply me ignore my existence, 

I never thought today you will felt like I do ..exactly like this.

So sudden.

Xiao yang find me yam cha want tell me her internal problem only. We had a short talk just for 30min and you less than 30 min can post on fb say I neglect you? your nothing?

Im not like you..i always have my phone in my palm hand just to reply u even call u this hubby I love.

And what I saw on fb? DISAPPOINTED.

Afternoon, I wanna call you chat with you coz my speaking test sucks so much . Mood just went own in school just now. 

I never put effort on my studies recently. HAIZ.

I never balance between you and my studies 

What to do? I enjoy every little moment together even though we quarrel.

I just love hanging out with you.

Seeing you everyday cherish my day. ;)

Like a smile on your face :)

Love the kisses on my lips ;)

A hug from you makes my day ;)

A goodnight kiss makes my nap sweeter :)

The bitter sweet moment are something that we should cherish.

BITTER- we fight we quarrel we cry but we love.

SWEET- we laugh we smile we hugs and kiss that the moment I hope it never ends 

I cannot tahan you You cannot tahan me??

Almost a year dy...you tahan till now so are me.

If someday somehow things never went like we think of, I hope the moment we cherish will be something that unforgettable.

YOU,ya you !!

concern me more and care me more !

I feel like I'm just a companion to you.

Friends with benefits you know??

tat movie?

=___=

terpesong~~~

ps. like sleeping wit you.warm,sweet,like husband and wife ;) 

TEHEE

chances

1 to 3 months sweet talks..after that vulgar words begin to be our part of communication..pissed off.. now i know the differences before and after in relationship...if friends are your part of your life please i dun wan a guy that neglect me whenever or anytime he want.I can neglect my friends why can't you?? I put aside everything just to spend time with you coz i like hanging out with you..u say u wanted me and friends too..alright..since last2 weeks i started to hanging around with you and your friends even fetch them too... i don't mind..i just mind your words and your care.but lastly..friends are that important to you..no matter what i do you will never put it in heart or concern it.fine.from today..i will just less something .. something you will slowly discovered what i will do..cause i know i will never be the best of all.so what's the use i sacrifice so much since you don't appreciate me.you know?after that mixx incident,..many of my friends ask me to break with you even till now..but no..i listen to my instant.i believe in second chance but not third.i promise to myself i will never let anything happen to myself again if you did something like that again. i will just let go everything and won't let any scratch in my heart. I PROMISE HEART!you're my everything since i give you everything ;) coz you the guy that makes me cry so much..the only guy that makes me cry . ILY.you maybe not understand why i wanna be with you..you will never noe ben dan..cause me, myself not sure why i wanna be with you lol.. i noe the feeling are there...loves too...i also know that i wanna see you everyday..wanna hug u kiss u ...do things together..breakfast,lunch dinner..everything!!! I wanna do everything together. the mixx incident, i tot that there's really no return for us. i really am sad. my friend told me u hugging someone else??? haixx..i really hate you! i want to end everything!! i really do! but..my heart just went down seeing you like this ...that's the way it has to be. this is us right now. i hope you will appreciate everything after all we went through. dun do it again. coz when a glass scattered for once it never will hang still after been glued.thanks LOVE.you did it again.hurts. (: