HER.

she's always there for me no matter what.

that is truly a friend i have. :)

I couldn't imagine my life without her a few months later.

I definitely will miss her so much :')

I'm spending my time with her everyday.

she's going to leave me soon.

I wish all the best for her.

stay a night with her..

hugging her...

hahax

It is better to tell the truth than good lies.

heartache :')

law

i realize form6 is just a something that stop me to think what i want to do.

today i realize i wanna quit.

LAW.

I want to be a lawyer.

I need to work hard instead of saying it.

I want to work in firm.

Im going to discuss with my parent.

want to stop form6.

I know its not gonna happen.

They never support what i want.

DRAWING? they stopped me..

HR? they stopped me too.

please..be supportive for me :)

i love this family but after i knew everything..

mom dad 

SIGH...LIFE is just sucks

I...I will work hard ! 

wun let those ppl look down to you!!

We are born in this way.

alright then.. wish me luck :)

1st of december today..

I've become mature and mature day by day.

i gonna let go lossen it a bit and fuck yea!!

i want to laugh!!

pehh...

muackss!!!

:)

GOODBYE :)

Which idiots will like their beloved one text with others??

which one??

definitely not me.

ya,

I HATE IT.

i think you dun like it too right when i text with other guys.

which im not.

I never text with anyone who have gugu

=.=

never..

you dun like then i chg.

but...you? i dunno.

ya a normal chating.

but is that necessary?

flirting?? i duno la..

i duno ..

ignore my msg text v others?

wak..i duno la..

text with others oso dun text me?

hmm...

=.= 

what a jerk

 i hope you're not like this.

you better not!

I never told you what I feel bout.

I..dun think you wanna hear coz u dun care.

so tired...

tired angry

tired all this.

maybe i should let it go.

let him do wat he likes.

someone told me that kind of behavior won't ever chg even he swear he will.

i give time.

what can I give more?

someone told me to find a better one who suit me.

I never listen .

Cause I find someone that I truly want.

someone says I deserve a better one.

LOL excuse me.

this is my fucking life here, and i noe what i deserve.

lol

I DESERVE HIM.

so fcuk off.

stop being a slut spoiling ppl relation.

some sacrifice are meant to be sacrifice but not everything.

There's a limit.

WELL,

IVY KOH

Let it go a bit..tiny bitzzy small thing let it go ba

:)

yea...

Be the IVY you used to be.

Laugh here laugh there

without an reason =.=

AT ZEN now...

order an ice-blended green tea.

My favourite.

Eyes are wet.

damn xia shui

heart so pain.

T.T

waiting chie hwei.

later duno go wher so fcuking de sian.

 I bet this relation wun last long.

coz nothing last forever.

I believe that.

PROVE TO ME

THAT I AM WRONG.

PLEASE.

chie hwei will there for me :')

ILY.

o0o

I on my own from now on.

FAMILY?

I duno wat is that mean to me anymore.

ONCE before but..now? not longer..

I better trust myself.

I cant trust no one d..

really.

even you..

im sorry to say that.

HOME
is just a place for me to sleep;a shelter .

gor, EUGENE.
thanks.
You sacrfice alot.

PARENT; u take opportunity from everyone.
Please wake up.

I will try my best to leave you guys.
I meant it.

ANDREW
I wont give a damn anymore.
people say ur things so much
i dun give a hell to them
coz
ILY

I wun hesitate to let go this relationship
even tot i love you dat much.

love you doesnt mean need to be together.
but i wish to be with u day by day.everyday.

keep ur promise la plz
so fcuk man.

HONESTY♥

I know you not being honest with me.

I know everything.

I know what I'm going to do.

FORGIVE eu...

I know your attitude.

I know your behavior.

I know your tactic.

I know your pattern .

I know everything about you.

So please be honest with me. TQ :')

OUR PROMISES 

5 YEARS ?

To make it true 

please be yourself and be honest with each other.

NO SECRETS

NO LIES

 NO EVERYTHING!!

I FUCKING HATE IT!

U TOO RIGHT??

SO BE HONEST YAHX!

DAMN PANTANG

ya its true.

I'm emo queen?

EMO to who?

YOU tau!??not someone else..

isn't it a good thing?

I fucking care about you.

Everything you you you!!

what i did or does.. you the one i'm think of 1st !?

I give you my everything.

EVERYTHING!!

Never LOVE a guy so deep before.

I spend my days with you.

We quarrel time to time.

NON-STOP quarrel everyday.

THEN we fall in love again.

WE realize again

how much we need each other.

''i decided..i leave...''

This is the msg i won't ever forget.

It hurts me.

really.

TEARS flow immediately.

I think you really meant it.

It just you don't want to hurt me like those guys did to me.

You just PITY me right?

I wonder.

Sometimes not everything I get to understand.

but it is LOVE.

LOVE are something complicated.

full with laughter,sadness,excitement,surprises and so on.

IT JUST NEED TOLERANCE AND TRUST.

 Trust builds in years but destroy in seconds.

SO PLEASE PLEASE be honest with me would you?

ILY ♥

happy ending ♥

hmm...

honestly

doubting are not a good thing right?

flash back what someone told me..

what he trying to tell me?

im wondering...

=..=

anyway,

trusting each other in a relationship are way important 

right?

em...i think this is the main reason that we keep fighting everyday

macam like a routine for us

1 day must quarrel just can

everyday keep fight fight @@

blur 

someday la somehow

sure beh tahan de..

however,

one of us sure will compromise 

and sek back de..

LOL too free liao i think

between,

jealousy makes us quarrel too

sweat..

this cannot that cannot

i need to get used to it

seriously..

i never did this until i met you !

yea you ben dan xP

MUACKS!

09/18

hmm..

chie hwei say it right..

we should let it flow its own..

form5 life 

we all wanted to forget it. but 

the memory wun just like dat gone 

so

we take it as a lesson and experience ba..haha

byebye 

NIGHTMARE~! xD

anyway...

with madu ..

hmm..

complicated but still sweet sweet

i lub him 

he lub me

jiu can dy lor...

other thing we can solve it 

he diao me 

i diao him

that's how we communicate..

zz 

so funny

aiyok 

just being ourself mah..

teehee xD

babi act cute..haha

Sometimes goodbye is the only way.

DUN FIND ME WHEN YOU NEED ME

ASSHOLES!

MOST HATE THOSE PPL 

WHEN YOU NEED THEM YOU JUST WILL GO AND FIND.

IF NOT..LANTAK LA..

whose cares~

FUCKED WITH IT

i remember what YOU said to me..

dun  keep in touch with me dy..

alright 

         Sometimes goodbye is the only way   .                           

ZAK SHAM LA, IVY KOH !

dun relay on others

BE INDEPENDENT ENOUGH

BECAUSE THEY WILL EVENTUALLY LEAVE YOU

SO

IS BETTER TO TRUST YOURSELF AND RELAY YOUR OWN 

THAN OTHERS.

IS USELESS

AND LOVE YOURSELF

COZ NO ONE WILL LOVES YOU BETTER THAN YOURSELF

SO 

TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN.

ZAK SHAM LA, IVY KOH !

09/11

hmm...what a tiring day

didnt slp well last night..

tidy room middle of the night..

zzz

then prepared honey and everything at midnight

kai wan xiao!

so that tomorrow(today) wun sooo rush..

haha cant slp at all..

then do some reading  blablabla

thn pong!

slp at 7 wake at 9am

wake jor jiu

 make breakfast

bath

wash toilet

guess what ?

9.30 i settle all of it d..haha

wait mom ..

then here i go~

ahh...

skip..

skip

s

k

i

p

.

.

.

.

hmm...

enjoy my day so do him..

conclusion

im tired.

k na..stop here..

wanna prepare schooling stuff

chao bloggie..

muacks!!

oh ya

all the best to spm and stpm candidates for tmr trial exam..

JIA YOU MADU!! 

T.T

It's happen all the time.

so LADIES & GENTLEMEN 

dun make your own conclusion..

I make him angry again

aiks

so cialat

i think this wont last long if we keep like this.

He's tired with my attitude 

I'm stubborn..

I know..

hmm..

i can only say sorry.

but swear to god

i never out with guys 

with dual only..no no no

yesterday SUCKS man..

1 day nia i feel like we are so far apart

he busy? i duno..mayb i shuld ask

instead of guessing around ! chow tut la me @@

he mad at me

coz i chat with guys?

alright 

im sorry

i only reply them ,my schoolmate n wadever..

ok  ok ok

no more 

no more

to be honest,

i always the one break our promise

haiz..

k..k..

i admit it was my wrong k..

i didnt mean to make you jealous..

its just.. i used to mix with guys chat with guys..

alright alright..

i will change 

change to maintain our relation k..

no more !!

en! =.=!!

CHANGES ♥

TODAY

suck...!

bored like hell

nothing to do

back from school 

sleep................tu jer kerja i

slp till half day zzz

and guess what?

LOL

i warn you....and you ignored.

Its okay. Let's just see what will happen :) 

for those people 

i dun care what you guys think about me.

Im 18 and previous IVY was immature. 

And now im old enough to think what i want and the consequences I'll take care it.

No worries. 

almost a week in Tun Tuah and still..people keep ask me why i chg back.. zzz

i'll just answer them..''Because I want to see you :) '' 

haha.. BOOM! 

hmm...

TUN TUAH change a lot jor. I miss the old one. Those memories with them was like a sugar.. that i wun ever forget those sweetness. I miss THEM

haha

dun look at me..

i has short hair!

haha..

duno how many years de photo =.=

childish..

so TUT!

CHOW TUT SIOT! ><

 

NAH...2011 SEPTEMBER

this photo madu snap de ♥

haha...

i framed it only.haha

sweet neh my smile..

haha xD

ss!

♥ Juz him

haha

everyday ss

even mau tido oso ss..

xD 

alright...madu angry me cz didnt write our sweet sweet thing here..

small gas..

xP bluek..

i noe u will read this..

so BLUEK~

every week we sure go dating ..

haha

is part of our routine dy..

cannot missed it.

sat or sun

mostly sunday outing dy

coz madu hav tuition on saturday

so sunday..hmm...

sunday reserved for madu dy..

haha

so friends..sorry la..sat only available for u all

PAI SEH YA..

i oso need wei ji jor haha..

every night 

we chit chat

guess what?

he's the one always find topic to chat 

meanwhile i diam diam nia..laugh nia

haha..but got respond hor

i..i just want to listen to his voice nia that's all..

haha so SWEET huh..

MUACKS madu..

 i noe u will smile geh when reading this..

dun shuang dao yahx xP bluek

lub you ♥

i was thinking..

if someone are better than me , care u better than me,

more happy , wun always cry for me..

madu..i tell you

go with her..

i wont blame you..

i cannot be so selfish

what i want i want get it..

no.

daddy..i wun blame you.

haha..

bullshit la.

u cannot leave me hor.

promise is a promise

u dun 1 me..c la..c wat will i do.

i will...i will...hmm...

wish you happiness na..ben dan

muacks!

i noe u wun geh..

coz

u cannot no me..i noe i noe

haha

me too daddy

cannot no you

so SWEET ler

♥

LOL

eng broken

rojak..

><

aiyak u noe what i mean can jor la..

k nah..

stop here

chao bloggie~ ♥

mmmMmmuacks!!

hmm...i miss my xiao mei mei hair 

haha ♥

WITH GIRLFRIENDS♥

gather with THEM 

was the best moment ever

kelly ,SM TEACHER  haha

Sabrina , future DJ haha

Anni , FUTURE PROFESSOR 

went Portuguese

bought some weird pao

haha..inside is egg yolk

hmm..not bad na..

nelson

miss my neslon ''dan''!

haha..

1st day in old school^^

today 

1st day in TUN TUAH 

hmm...

everything seems fine

only 2 malays n 2 indians

the rest are chinese

haha...

im chinese again..

alright

i must concentrate jor

cannot slp in class

when i step in TUN TUAH

i felt so weird yet excited n happy

there's a home feeling noe..

haha

argh..hard to describe my feelings..

anyway,

wow

everyone call me greet me  LOL haha

ivy! ivy!

@@

even teacher say ''ivy what r u doing here??''

haha...

i walk to class everyone shout 

ivy! ivy!

=.=

zzz

make me so awkward LOL!

but..but glad that they still remember me 

friends,

thx to u all

welcome me with warmest ..friendly ..heart !

^^

muacksss!

ashiteru!!

he's the last one

I'm sick

I'm tired of everything

they are correct bout everything

guess what?nothing last forever

this statement mmg true

1,2,3 and 4! 

all same mia!

wun be so stupid anymore

let it be

let it go

perhaps it will be the better choice

but..

things are not easy to be forgotten

this is very the 1st time i'm so mad bout it

i wun care 

i dun 1 be disappointed anymore

baobei are correct

depending on herself

yeah..

im so going to do that myself soon


apa wa cakap ni..
haha
i need him la.
he's part of my life now..
if someday..somehow
everything change
i will not in relationship anymore
coz ..yeah
promise he's my last 1


will single 4ever if he dun care anymore
yeap
i love him

♥